So here we go, and I am not going to act like this is the first time I have written this same blog over and over again. It's 2016, I have been freelancing as a Motion Graphic Designer for the last 2 and a half years straight out of university. Along with that, I have 'tried' to balance it with running a company I set up with my good friend Paul Stayt and exploring the "running your own business" maze which is pretty tough and sometimes pretty outright ridiculous. Although it has been incredible to say the least, the amount of work I have done, people I have met, things I have learnt. I can most surely say I have been lucky to have amazing people around me to help push my very short career in the thing I am most passionate about so far and so quickly. I am fully aware that most graduates at my age, 24, would love to be in my position, but sadly it's not all what it seems.
This past year has been the most intense and eye opening time in my life. Just as it felt like it couldn't get any better, and I was on track to achieving all my dreams in life, it all came to a sudden stop as life around me started to crumble. With news of my mothers cancer first, then having all my older siblings move away, to then having to see the woman I fell in love with have to leave the country. All these 3 things came at a heavy cost to my mind, body and soul, in ways which I never thought would effect me.
Growing up, I felt as if I never really had suffered much heart ache, not having much family in England other than my siblings and parents, we never had to really deal with major loses, or thankfully illness to any of us. Yet growing up was an interesting time for me for I always was a bit different than my brothers. As they went and followed careers in I.T and Computer, I decided I wanted to be an artist. Not the best thing to tell your very traditionally Indian parents. School and college was a hard time, never really felt I grasped much, along side with having to deal with heavy anxiety issues. This anxiety followed me up to where I am now, and has been most prevalent recently as I deal with the madness that surrounds actually having to be an adult.
I have decided to start blogging pretty much as a channel to document and look at my life and career in perspective. I find the ongoing busy busy world I live in means I very rarely get to stop and take a step back to calm down and actually be able to consume whats going on around me. So lets take this as a sort of clean slate, ish.. Without it hopefully sounding self indulgent, I want to be able to get my voice and thoughts out to the world. I fully understand that I have barely scratched the surface of design and art, but being that it is the most important thing to me in life, I hope I can at least give my 2 cents on it all personally.
Although I have a real hunger for design and my work in general, I very easily become distracted and let fear get the best of me. I find that before I even start a project, I tend to go through all the bad things, or barriers I will come up against, and this sort of leads to me falling at the first hurdle and diminishing the very thought of doing whatever it is I want to. Yet I know how I can overcome and accomplish what I must do, I hope, or it for sure is a learning process I guess. But here we go, lets jump onto this journey of exploration and knowledge, experience and love to find out what is ahead of us all.